Saturday, June 29, 2013

Am I really this gullible?

Sometimes I accuse my husband of being pessimistic.  But in reality I think he does a great job of balancing me out.  I always think the best of people and expect them to do what is right.  Unfortunately that means that when they don't do the right thing I tend to get my feelings hurt.  Right now my feelings are very, very hurt.  I wish my dear, sweet husband was here right now to tell me I'm an idiot and people are assholes and that we should always expect them to take advantage of a situation.  Instead I am going to have to grow some balls and have a very not-pleasant conversation with someone who is taking advantage of my kindness.

this sucks.

Wednesday, June 12, 2013

Funk

So I know I haven't blogged in a few months but in my defense I did finish my MBA. But that isn't why I haven't blogged. I just haven't had any motivation to do so. 
But the last few days I've been in a funk, like a serious the deployment is winning kind of funk and I just feel like I need to vent. I try not to be Debbie downer but it is soooo hard right now So I'm turning to my personal space that is relatively free of real life people who might make a big deal about what I say. 
I seriously miss my husband. A lot. A whole whole lot. We are roughly 3 months through deployment and the past two weeks the deployment has been on the verge of winning. I have been super homesick and I miss my husband. I've had an almost impossible time getting out of bed but I realized tonight that is because I'm having an even harder time getting myself to go to bed. It's so lonely sleeping by myself every night. I just miss him. 
So hopefully venting will help me and tomorrow I will be in a better mood. Since I knew I was in a funk I went ballroom dancing two nights over the weekend which helped for the time being but all of the good happy ballroom endorphins wore off by the following morning. Friday is my husbands favorite holiday, flag day :) and some friends and I are going to a baseball game which I am looking forward to. Saturday another friend is celebrating her 30 th birthday at Busch Gardens so I'm super stoked about roller coasters and if I get back to town in time I'm going ballroom dancing again Saturday night. Hopefully all of this fun stuff will kick me out of this rut. 

Here is a picture of the progress I have made on the deployment paper chain. It now covers 1 complete wall in my living room and goes across my front door. I'm thinking it is going to snake it's way out of the living room before deployment is over. Should have picked a bigger room. :)